Amid the changes… in Canada, it is the time of Beltane. To our friends in the Southern Hemisphere, it is Samhain. Each hemisphere is in Mother Nature’s cycle of change. In the North we are celebrating the height of spring and the welcoming of summer. Samhain is the time of acknowledging you are moving inwards and towards the longest nite of the year.
But these cross days are like nothing I have ever experienced. Where I live we are ending our Shelter in Place order. I have been very fortunate to have kept my job and have had little disruption to my life. On the outside. On the inside, I have had good days and bad days. I have been sensitive to the energy around me all of my life, and I have become quite resilient through time. I don’t quite feel so resilient right now. I go through waves of sadness, fatigue, frustration, depression, and anger. We have had protests in our City to open up our economy. I have to admit I have been staying off social media. Not because I am not interested in staying in touch with friends, I feel the life sucked out of me when I read the mountains of misinformation, paranoid musings, and conspiracy theories.
It is in times like now I am so very grateful I have tools I can use to help my mood and my spirit. The first thing I do when I wake up in the morning is light my candle. I say a short prayer asking for the spirits who protect me to keep an eye on me. I light my smudge, smudge myself, and my house. I clear away the restless nite, the deep dreams, and the weight of the uncertain times I find myself in.
I have created a new altar to work with the images I was given during my journey. I took a cotton ball apart to represent the white mist/cloud I saw as the virus. I filled four very small bowls with sand. The reason I did that was that the virus is respiratory (water) and produced a fever (fire). I did not want to put either of those elements around the virus. Sand is an element of earth and has the ability to put out fire and protect us from water. I placed four candles around the sand and cloud. I made sure my candles were a distance away from the sand, I did not want the heat to affect the sand. The candles are my healing spirits. I asked them to contain the virus. I took a string and wound it around the bottom of the candle holders. The loose end of each string I moved outwards, away from the centre leading to pieces of paper I had written the following words on: health, healing, restriction, halt. I then took water I had solar-charged and placed one cup by each word. The reason I did that was to bring healing potential of the sun and spirits of the Upper World to energize and activate my words.
I use tea lights for my candles. The reason I use the smaller candles is to give intense but short bursts of energy to my altar. The virus is ever-present, hence the cotton. I have not changed my sand because it has been my binding element. It needs to stay solid and continuous. When I smudge in the morning, I do not forget to smudge my altar. I pay attention to my sand and water. I make sure I say short prayers of gratitude for the elements who are joining me in my quest to contain the virus.
When I am feeling the emotions I describe above, I go to my altar and breathe my feelings into the water by the flames. I release my “illness” into the healing potential of the solar water. I release it. If I am still feeling overwhelmed or heavy I use my rattle to shake up my energy field. I tap the rattle on my heart to loosen the heaviness and remind it, I am not alone. I tap the back of my neck to clear the gate between my body and my brain. I tap the bottoms of my feet to clear away whatever I am tripping over.
Stay well. Reach out. Build an altar. Release your feelings. And know you are not alone.